Weight shifting

As long as I can remember, I always had a little extra weight,it comforted me somehow and hid how I really felt about my body. Secretly ,I admired people who were confident about their bodies,whether big,small,skinny,thin,shirt or tall.   My parents never gave me any compliments ,it felt rather odd ,awkward and embarrassing. Then I left to go and teach in Fort Beaufort in my first teaching job and I remember trying to find my own style of dress and somehow Infound myself wanting to lose weight as Al, the teachers were proportioned ,they went to the gym every day and they went out dressed up nicely all the time. I wanted to present a responsible,knee and bosom covered ,pinafore wearing teacher who would not rock the boat. Joining the gym with another teacher was great as we motivated each other ,but it also started to become a therapy session where she complained about her parents,her family ,her husband and her secret fantasies in her bedroom. The weight started to shift ,but I felt the unseen weight somehow get more and more heavy, like Joseph's multicoloured coat ,it started to enfold me from the shoulders ,to my arms, down my sides ,to my hips and right down to my toes.